[ He's just going to hold his hand and be there for a moment before- ]
Do you want to stay here or would you like me to bring you to your cabin? [ Pause.] Or my cabin. So you've got someone to help look out for you. There's a spare room in Arthur's as well.
[ John just nods. And he'll lean over and kiss Oscar's forehead gently. The world will change between one moment and the next... And Oscar will be laying down on the couch in his lounge. And John will pull up a blanket from the back of it.]
He went through something that... fucked him up a lot. And it means that if he died and his body resets, he'd be... rail thin. In pain. It would take months to get him back to how he is now.
I- I imagined that.
...and then my hand was around him. Sebastian.
Not- not his body. Him. The part that...matters. The part that can be destroyed.
[ Given the death and destruction and everything, it takes him a moment to parse where Oscar is going, especially since he's not actually using any of the words.
Subtext is not his forte.
But when he mentions his vow-]
O-oh.
[ A firm nod. Then- ]
...when you're feeling better, obviously.
[ But he will take his lips in a sweet, soft kiss. ]
Do you know what you'd like to do? Or would it be easier for me to show you when the time comes?
I suppose on the couch would be startling if anyone came in.
[He laughs quietly, kissing John back. He feels very shy, even if he didn't out and out say it.]
I really- I. Don't know what I'm doing. With the. Mechanics. So, I'd like for you to show me what you like. And we can talk, see what I should do, and you do, to make this good.
For both of us.
[And he leans in for a soft kiss.]
I want you to feel good John. Nothing would make me happier.
[ He'll take that kiss. And he's gentle with how he brushes across his cheek with his thumb. ]
I can show you lots of different things.
[ He smiles just a little. ]
And I know it'll feel good. Because I'll be with you. I just hope it feels good for you too. That you like it. [ He considers. ] Would you like to try things with me in a more femme form as well?
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[He took his hand to grasp it tight. He felt tears burn his eyes; it was a relief to not be alone.]
...thank you for being here.
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Of course. I'm... sorry I wasn't there earlier.
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You're here now. That's what's important to me.
Thank you, for being here.
[John saving him? He didn't think of that. He's used to being independent.]
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[ He's just going to hold his hand and be there for a moment before- ]
Do you want to stay here or would you like me to bring you to your cabin? [ Pause.] Or my cabin. So you've got someone to help look out for you. There's a spare room in Arthur's as well.
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I think...I would like to be around people for awhile. I feel...
I feel like I did when I lost my arm. Weak and sick and...shaky.
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Better?
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His eyes open and he nods.]
Much. Thank you John.
[He reaches for him then to give his arm a gentle touch.]
Are you all right? I know the attack was...a surprise. But...are you hurt?
[He's worried for his friend.]
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I'm...
[ A second head shake. ]
The worst thing that happened to me was that I lost my temper. Thankfully, Arthur was there to talk me down.
I'm fine, though.
[ A little squeeze. ]
Arthur got a minor injury but he's fine now too.
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[Oh no. Poor Arthur. He's been through so much.
Given the chance, he'll lean against John, closing his eyes and just enjoy...feeling safe and wanted. Selfish, but it's...nice.]
Honestly John...I had no idea you had a temper. You've hid it quite well.
Perhaps too well. But...I,can understand it, perhaps. In a more human scale.
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[ He'll start gently coming through Oscar's hair with one hand, careful not to be too much.]
It was small. He had a shield on him. It could have been worse. ...I'm just glad it wasn't.
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[He swallows. The hair touch is soothing, and needed. He felt sick and if John wasn't here, he'd be crying.]
I don't...think I have a good temper either. If Arthur was hurt badly...
I don't think I could trust my self control. But...I hope you're not afraid of yourself.
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He went through something that... fucked him up a lot. And it means that if he died and his body resets, he'd be... rail thin. In pain. It would take months to get him back to how he is now.
I- I imagined that.
...and then my hand was around him. Sebastian.
Not- not his body. Him. The part that...matters. The part that can be destroyed.
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[But also Arthur dying...that's what would happen to him? The poor man. No wonder John had been so afraid.]
John...come here please.
[Let him pull you in for a forehead kiss and a mouth kiss. And so he can touch your cheek.]
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You reacted as much as I would have. Having someone you love in pain...hurting and suffering...
I would be scared for him too. It doesn't sound like just anger John.
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Fear doesn't... make it any better.
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[Oscar kissed him again. Slowly. Tenderly.]
...John? Would you...would it...I know I will need to make amends for breaking my vow but...
Would you be...interested? In that?
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Subtext is not his forte.
But when he mentions his vow-]
O-oh.
[ A firm nod. Then- ]
...when you're feeling better, obviously.
[ But he will take his lips in a sweet, soft kiss. ]
Do you know what you'd like to do? Or would it be easier for me to show you when the time comes?
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[He laughs quietly, kissing John back. He feels very shy, even if he didn't out and out say it.]
I really- I. Don't know what I'm doing. With the. Mechanics. So, I'd like for you to show me what you like. And we can talk, see what I should do, and you do, to make this good.
For both of us.
[And he leans in for a soft kiss.]
I want you to feel good John. Nothing would make me happier.
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I can show you lots of different things.
[ He smiles just a little. ]
And I know it'll feel good. Because I'll be with you. I just hope it feels good for you too. That you like it. [ He considers. ] Would you like to try things with me in a more femme form as well?
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I'd like that. Learning these new things. I'm sure it'll be wonderful, whatever we do because I'm doing it with you.
[He tilts his head.]
You have a more...femme form? Like how sometimes you're a cat?
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I try to mostly be consistent for people. And switching that throws a lot of people off. But-
[ A crooked little smile. ]
If you want to see, I can show you. I've... actually got a few looks. Like most people have different clothes.
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I'd like to see your looks. I'm sure you're very appealing, and very John, for each appearance.
[He offered a crooked little smile back.]
I'll make sure to kiss you instead of giving compliments.
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Also thoughts of sex. ]
Just let me know when you'd like to see.
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[It's nice to be cared for. To be kissed and given affection.
And well, wanted sexually. That's nice too.]
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