He went through something that... fucked him up a lot. And it means that if he died and his body resets, he'd be... rail thin. In pain. It would take months to get him back to how he is now.
I- I imagined that.
...and then my hand was around him. Sebastian.
Not- not his body. Him. The part that...matters. The part that can be destroyed.
[ Given the death and destruction and everything, it takes him a moment to parse where Oscar is going, especially since he's not actually using any of the words.
Subtext is not his forte.
But when he mentions his vow-]
O-oh.
[ A firm nod. Then- ]
...when you're feeling better, obviously.
[ But he will take his lips in a sweet, soft kiss. ]
Do you know what you'd like to do? Or would it be easier for me to show you when the time comes?
I suppose on the couch would be startling if anyone came in.
[He laughs quietly, kissing John back. He feels very shy, even if he didn't out and out say it.]
I really- I. Don't know what I'm doing. With the. Mechanics. So, I'd like for you to show me what you like. And we can talk, see what I should do, and you do, to make this good.
For both of us.
[And he leans in for a soft kiss.]
I want you to feel good John. Nothing would make me happier.
[ He'll take that kiss. And he's gentle with how he brushes across his cheek with his thumb. ]
I can show you lots of different things.
[ He smiles just a little. ]
And I know it'll feel good. Because I'll be with you. I just hope it feels good for you too. That you like it. [ He considers. ] Would you like to try things with me in a more femme form as well?
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[ He'll start gently coming through Oscar's hair with one hand, careful not to be too much.]
It was small. He had a shield on him. It could have been worse. ...I'm just glad it wasn't.
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[He swallows. The hair touch is soothing, and needed. He felt sick and if John wasn't here, he'd be crying.]
I don't...think I have a good temper either. If Arthur was hurt badly...
I don't think I could trust my self control. But...I hope you're not afraid of yourself.
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He went through something that... fucked him up a lot. And it means that if he died and his body resets, he'd be... rail thin. In pain. It would take months to get him back to how he is now.
I- I imagined that.
...and then my hand was around him. Sebastian.
Not- not his body. Him. The part that...matters. The part that can be destroyed.
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[But also Arthur dying...that's what would happen to him? The poor man. No wonder John had been so afraid.]
John...come here please.
[Let him pull you in for a forehead kiss and a mouth kiss. And so he can touch your cheek.]
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You reacted as much as I would have. Having someone you love in pain...hurting and suffering...
I would be scared for him too. It doesn't sound like just anger John.
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Fear doesn't... make it any better.
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[Oscar kissed him again. Slowly. Tenderly.]
...John? Would you...would it...I know I will need to make amends for breaking my vow but...
Would you be...interested? In that?
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Subtext is not his forte.
But when he mentions his vow-]
O-oh.
[ A firm nod. Then- ]
...when you're feeling better, obviously.
[ But he will take his lips in a sweet, soft kiss. ]
Do you know what you'd like to do? Or would it be easier for me to show you when the time comes?
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[He laughs quietly, kissing John back. He feels very shy, even if he didn't out and out say it.]
I really- I. Don't know what I'm doing. With the. Mechanics. So, I'd like for you to show me what you like. And we can talk, see what I should do, and you do, to make this good.
For both of us.
[And he leans in for a soft kiss.]
I want you to feel good John. Nothing would make me happier.
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I can show you lots of different things.
[ He smiles just a little. ]
And I know it'll feel good. Because I'll be with you. I just hope it feels good for you too. That you like it. [ He considers. ] Would you like to try things with me in a more femme form as well?
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I'd like that. Learning these new things. I'm sure it'll be wonderful, whatever we do because I'm doing it with you.
[He tilts his head.]
You have a more...femme form? Like how sometimes you're a cat?
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I try to mostly be consistent for people. And switching that throws a lot of people off. But-
[ A crooked little smile. ]
If you want to see, I can show you. I've... actually got a few looks. Like most people have different clothes.
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I'd like to see your looks. I'm sure you're very appealing, and very John, for each appearance.
[He offered a crooked little smile back.]
I'll make sure to kiss you instead of giving compliments.
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Also thoughts of sex. ]
Just let me know when you'd like to see.
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[It's nice to be cared for. To be kissed and given affection.
And well, wanted sexually. That's nice too.]
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For now, though, you should rest a little more. Recover your strength.
I'll try and be here. And if I'm not, I'll leave a note.
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I'll rest. Thank you John.
It's...
I'm glad. That you're here. Rest with me when you can? It'll help us both, I think.
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Even if it feels a little strange to just...rest.