"All right. I do have stricter rules as a man who is supposed to lead by example, and so...it wouldn't be fair to go by that let's go...for a more...regular example."
He exhaled through his nose. "For example, drinking in excess is frowned upon. It happens, and is...sadly to be expected in our hard times. But using it as a reason to pick fights or hurt someone- that would be behaving badly."
He didn't like lying either. Sometimes he had to, but he didn't like it.
But the question had him consider.
"It wouldn't be easy for me. I would struggle with it. I'm not- used to being looked out for." He admitted. Some people on ship- Anduin, Zerxus- had gently called him out for it.
"But I would try. And I would...very much appreciate it when they did. It's- nice. Being supported."
Zerxus struggles with it too, which is why Kahl mostly doesn't tell him about how he plans to help him. But he tries, and it suits them well enough.
"It is," Kahl agrees softly, looking down at the dim, murky water, even as the mist starts clear a little, a hint of greater light from up ahead. "It is...a hell beyond description, to truly have no one."
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That...sounded ominous. Well, it wouldn't be the first time he had put his foot into it, nightmare or not. But really behaving badly...hm.
"For myself, or another?" He wanted to know. "Because it differs."
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He's interested in the difference too, now.
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He exhaled through his nose. "For example, drinking in excess is frowned upon. It happens, and is...sadly to be expected in our hard times. But using it as a reason to pick fights or hurt someone- that would be behaving badly."
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It's not entirely clear whether this is an interpretation or an endorsement.
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"There's no need to cycle the violence." He sighed, and shook his head. "It tends to beget more violence, not end it."
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"My point is...my question is, what would you do, if you had that kind of. Fundamental disagreement. With someone you were responsible for."
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"I can't change whoever they are. I can only advise, and listen. And support them, as much as I am able."
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"Would you let them support you, if they wanted to?"
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But the question had him consider.
"It wouldn't be easy for me. I would struggle with it. I'm not- used to being looked out for." He admitted. Some people on ship- Anduin, Zerxus- had gently called him out for it.
"But I would try. And I would...very much appreciate it when they did. It's- nice. Being supported."
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"It is," Kahl agrees softly, looking down at the dim, murky water, even as the mist starts clear a little, a hint of greater light from up ahead. "It is...a hell beyond description, to truly have no one."
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He reached out, slow and gentle, to touch Kahl on top of his head, if it was allowed.
"Thank you for joining me here, in this river. It would have been terribly lonely to go on by myself."
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"Go well, Oscar."
Once he passes the misty line into the light, he'll drift into gentle, dreamless sleep.
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He offered a soft nod of thanks, and walked into the light. And...
it was a relief to have nothing but a quiet, restful sleep.